my frame of mind: jaded

i see things a lil diffrent now i want to start shutting dont but i feel like im so far in that it makes no differance where i go from here... does that make any sience???
im so confuisied i dont know what to do...
im ready to be over this but it is so hard everything is easyer said than done...
ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and thats all i have to say about that...
naomi