4/30/48

happy birthday Daddy!!!
today is a emotional day i have never been away from home on my dads birthday and it just makes me sad and the fact that im on my dot makes it worse. i miss my dad i feel so lost in this world with out him sometimes but i know he is looking over me and staying close to my heart. today one of my best friends left cause he completed his trade and im happy for him but at the same time im going to miss him. the other friend of mine that ive had it out with tryed to make things better today and it not working cause my trust has been shaken i want to go home for the weekend cause i need a brake from gary. maybe i will go to new braunfels. well i got to go
naomi

this goes out to sable AkA stable

let me tell you about my friend stable.......
she is crazy i think she needs help from Dr. phill
so how does that make you feel??
naomi

ok so let me tell you about what is going on with me im getting some things like drivers ed out of the way im trying to get some test done in class so yea that on my mind and oh yea the guy in my life is no more it prolly what is best. as for my friend ships there ok as far as girls but it just seems like all the guys in my life that are at all importaint are just stabbing me in the back and that is so not cool.. i just dont know what im doing wrong that they just dont know how not to lie to me. they tell me everything and just leave big stuff out and then get caught right after.. im so sad that i jusst think that i just need to stick to my self...
well im going to think about it right now and i will get to you later.
naomi

and thats all i have to say about that...

my guy trubble will never end and i hate it..
im kinda down on love at the moment and that is all i have to say about that.
naomi

hey world its been a intresting few weeks.. i think that im a bit heart broken and the reason that i think it is this way is cause i dont know how i feel about this guy that i have been talking to and its eatting me up inside.. he has feeling for me acording to him but at the same time he doesnt want a relationship.. i feel that he is scared of getting to close cause he has been hurt in the past and he just doesnt seem to see that im not that girl im not the one that hurt him and i dont plan on hurting him i just like him so much that is kills me just to be like this with him. im not saying that i have to be in a relationship with him i just want our friendship but its so complacated cause of what we shared when he want home with me and steph and he met my mother.. that is a big deal for me. i mean nothing happened like physichaly but the emotions were there.. well that is enough about that i tend to get all emotional about him but i just feel like i needed to get it out of my head.. i love my blog cause i can tell it stuff and get things off my chest..
naomi