i feel pretty...

ok so have you ever heard someone say that all fat people are just kinda smelly and gross i dont like that cause to tell you the truth im not a lil girl and i never smell i stay on top of my body oder... some of my class mates we talking about some people that we have in our dorm that are on hygeine contracts and are not talking care of them selfs... we were not gossiping we were just discusing the issue of hygeine... well some one made a statment about fat people being smellie and then when i was like what the heck they were like not you naomi they said that i am put together and i know how to keep my self up and that im not a low selfesteme peoson that is always looking down on her self... that made me feel good in a way but at the same time it made me feel kinda down i have been working on my weight and i have some good news to tell you all i went to the dr the other day and well i have lossed 22 pounds in the last two months and im really working on loosing some more... we exersize and run at least 5 times a week and i have cut down on sodas and junk food i eat more like i should and i feel good... im not changing this for anyone else im doing it for me and my health... so how does that make you feel....
naomi

I want my mommy!!!

some times i just want to give up on all this stuff but i know that if i stick it out i will benifit in the end... its just that sometimes people make me so mad and well make me want to eather cuss them out or just start fighting i have never been the one to fight but being here at gary well it makes me just want to throw some bows cause these people here are just plain messy and stupid... for example the other night i was with my friend priss and well we went to the pool hall right dawn the way from our dorm to see what was up and just to have fun and when we got there they told us that there was a dance in the back so she wanted to go and well i entertained the thought of cutting a rug lol and well we went in and well lets just say that techno is not my kind of party music and went we got ready to leave i saw some young men trying to take a picture of my friend.. now i have no problem with people taking pictures of people but the guy was trying to take a pic under her skirt and i just went off... then they asked me to leave the dance and some boys came up to me after and said that i didnt need to make a seen like that and that if i did it again i was going to get it and well that made me even more angry so i started to roll up my sleaves and told them if they wanted to go some rounds i would be happy to do so.... all they could say is that they didnt want me to get beat up cause they knew that my boys would start a riot... lol last time i checked i dont have boys but later i found out that i did so thats a plus but can you see a lil bit into what i have to deal with on a daily... and dont get me started on the girls here its just ridiculous... im going to stop for now cause i want to hit someone... i just want my mommy and some ice cream...







"I used to wake up somedays and wish I stayed asleep cause i went to bed on top of the world on top of the world and today the worlds on top of me everybodys got [opions they change] they aint been in my posistion [they dont care] and it brakes my heart to hear what they have to say about me."

you are the company you keep....

have you ever thought about that saying,"you are the company you keep". I think that is is so trur there have been times that i have been with the wrong people and i always end up doing the wrong kind of things.. and here at gary this saying goes a long way cause there are people that want to say that they can hang with everyone and just be them selfs but i think that if you become friends with a group of people that eventually you will become just like them... the other day some girls we getting mad at some guys for calling them out their name and well to the defence of the guys if it walks like a duck and talks like a duck well then it is a dang duck.... i dont like for guys to call me out my name but i will be damned if they call me something that im surlly not... well that is all for now... naomi

it will all get better with time....

ok so i have a delema there is this guy that sall remain nameless and well we have been hanging out for sometime now and i dont know where we are going with this whole thing... lol i feel like im in high school again... well last night him and i went for a walk and we were talking and out of no where he said that he didnt know how it act arround me but in the same breath he said that he wasnt looking to get in a relationship cause he doesnt want to get hurt... then he brought up how i hang out with alot of guys... where did all that come from... im a bit confused.... so what do you think??? he is really nice funny and best of all not like everyone else he is not trying to sell drugs or be a thug and i like that.. my friends like him and so do i... things are just getting a bit complex... well that is all for now im going to take a test...
naomi

rain rain go away....

so today is a ok day the only think making it a bit drab is the rain i hate rain well not hate it i dislike it so much when i do my hair all nice... lol i will be ok though. i took a math test today and well i made a 516 all though that is good i need a 596 to tabe out. so what is the deal with this crazy texas weather i dont think that i like it... lol well im blessed to have another day to be me... thank God!!!
naomi

sorry im late for my mass wedding... lol

hello!!! were watching pay it foward in my moa class... lol so i havent written in a min but im back so there doing a random drug test of out plc sometime with in the next few days cause of the top three that got busted doing drugs... i mean yea i understand why cause now the center thinks that if he did than we all can well thats ture but i feel like it is unjust to make everyone submit them selfs to a pee test... i just think that there is just somuch more that goes on on this campus and i think that the center should look at the big picture before they over react and pay hunderds of dollers for us to pee in a cup... well i have to study for a test now i have one in half an hour...
naomi

thought of the day.....

why is it that people think that there invinsable?? ok so last night the leader for our plc got caught with drugs, this is the same person that at meetings would tell us that we dont need to be doing drugs and so on and so forth... i find all this really irritating cause people are so hypcritical and it makes me want to punch people in the face.. it hit hard with some of my peers cause there is a chance that because he got caught that he will give up the people that sold drugs or did them on camups.. i just dont get it we all came here for a better future and a new start but people just cant get away from there demonds... so what are your thought on that???
i just think that we all need to do what we came here to do and stop letting our past pull us in the pit of hell... cause if you think about it you can get termanated from the program you will go to jail cause this is goverment proptery... Hear me now... im going to discipline myself so that no one else has to...
naomi

feeling a bit under the weather

hola world... im not feeling so hot today its a bla kind of day im tired my head hurts and well my tummy just dont feel right... im falling apart but you know what im going to have a good day... its going to drag a bit but in all its going to be good... i had a lil party this weekend at my cuz' house we had fun we had some good cake and company i just didnt like the horror movies i hate the feeling of being scared..
well got to go its time to work... naomi

happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! today is my 23rd birthday im so excited... its going to be a good day cause i have a crown on my head and my friend nana had some silly string and she got me this morning at brakefast... fun stuff.. well got to go see ya.
naomi

hello world...

today is a good day but i miss my family though... my birthday is tommorow im going to be another year older but im still excited!!! lol im going to be a whole 23 that is getting up there in age. i feel old sometimes but then with age comes wisdom..
well yesterday i finished my 5 page paper and my slideshow on the male organs lol... what a subject.. i took a test in reading the other day and i got a 620 and the score i needed was a 596 im proud of myself.. well thats all i have for now see ya

wake up!!!

my alarm didnt go off today, but its ok cause im blessed to be here on Gods green earth and well my hair looks good so im good im dertermend to have a good day...
i have to write a paper on purging and distroying documents and well its the most boring thing that i have ever had to do...it has to be five pages long too... ahhhhh!!!!! but im almost done i have four pages dont but the last one is giving me trubble.. then i have to do a slide show on a body system like the resptory or the reproductive system... that will come a bit easer cause well i like to do that kind of stuff. well i just thought that i would up date you all on whats up.... and you know what my birthday is right arround the corner im so excited...
naomi
p.s. my spelling sucks today forgive me....

between a rock and a hard place....

I went to church sunday morning and we got some good work... he said that we are all between the rock and the hard place.. The hard place is the world cause when adam and eve did what they did in the garden God cursed the ground.. i had never thought about it that way and the rock represents difficulity... we talked about that we need to latch on and grow instead of being complacent. and dont make excuses about who what when and where gets in the way of you going to church..
oh yea i thought that this was good the pastor said that we need not get so worldly minded that we are no heavenly good... i like that...
SO HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL???