Hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so this weekend was all about family... its been fun right now im having a sleep over with my cuz'.... its been intresting it seems like we all just pick up where we left off the last time that we all saw each other. ha ha to tell you the truth i have not seen some of these people im like 4 years if that.. lol well i guess thats all for now.. love you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im back...

Ok so its been a while its been a lil crazy for me the last few weeks.... let me tell you its been hard.. Im trying my best to do right by myself my dad and everyone else in my family and it doesnt seem to be working....a few says ago i got sick at work and had to make a trip to GVH.. i was really scared!!!! all the DR. could tell me is that i need to stay out of the sun for the most part and to cut out all stess im my life... to bad all that my life is is stress.. what can i say this is getting to me in a big way.. well they sent me home and told me to talke it easy.. well on mothers day the ER DR. called me and said that he looked at my cat scan and that he saw something that he didnt like at all and that i needed to come back to get an MRI done.. what the heck is going on here.. i dont know what is up with me.. all i know is that im scared and mad as hell at the same time... i dont want what happened to my mom to happen to me... i have to go to the Dr in a few weeks but to tell you the truth i dont think that i can go cause i cant pay for it.. these days money is tight... Remember me in your prayers...

Intresting...

Be perfect
Perfect brain
Perfect face
Perfect body
Perfect body
Perfect body

- Shocking studies show eating disorders
on the rise in teenage girls-
Shocking
Bullshit

You should have seen this coming
You raised me
Your society screwed me up
I read your Hypocritical magazines

I went to your schools
I dealt with your sons' running commentaries
on
My face
My weight
My breasts
My body
Shocking
Bullshit

My parents can't portect me
My friends can't portect me
My wonderful, loving, ignorant
community can't portect me

So i portect them
I have to survive
Why hurt them too?
What?
Oh, I'm fine, Mom
~Smile~
Be Perfect
Bullshit....