she is braking me down

My mom is going to be the death of me..... I feel like she wants me to be the bad seed she wants me to be the one that fails she wants me to be just as unhappy as she is... I feel like I have lost everything that has ever mattered to me.... IM not the person that I use to be... Like I said she is raking me down and I don't know how to deal with it.....