I'm back again for another wild spin...... (who am I?)

Wow! I haven't posted in a while and it feels kinda weird....
the past few weeks have been really hard on me let me tell people get to be so ugly when people pass on.
can we all say drama!!!!
I'm just happy to know that my dad is no longer in pain and that he is in a better place...
I miss him so much....
I think that right now it would be so easy for me to just go buck wild and do what ever floats my boat but that is so not what I'm going to do.
I wont give anyone the satisfaction of telling me, "I told you so!!!"
life really sucks when you feel like almost everyone is against you...
well I had better go to sleep
ttyl